broken heart 2

I know a little bit more. The surgery will probably happen on Monday. He hasn't had a heart attack but was having all sorts of pains in his arms from blockages--5 of them. The doctors say his heart is very strong but they need to get rid of the blockages or he probably will have a heart attack. He is angry because they are keeping him in the hospital and not letting him do anything. "I could be at home watching TV or working on the computer and doing the same activity," he grumps. But I'm glad they are keeping him there because he wouldn't just "do nothing" at home. He turned 64 just two weeks ago.

I marvel at my mom (who will probably read this at some point). She knows I'm a wreck, and so is my brother and sister, and she is appearing to be the pillar of strength at the moment, about how the doctors do this all the time now and it will be fine and don't worry about coming home, he'll be fine. I know her though, and she's not really the pillar of strength, but I'm glad she seems like it right now because I sure as hell know I'm not.

Thank you all so much for your well wishes and thoughts. It means a lot to me right now.